Annunciation
Once, I was broken inside. Listening to songs, suddenly the lyrics hit my heart:
“Cause now that they're gone, all I hear are the words that I needed to say.”
Once I am gone, will the people close to me say this? I got lost in the world of imagination, foreseeing a future yet to come.
For the silent sufferers who are badly broken inside, whose lives feel bland and miserable, I am writing this for you, my dears.
The kind who sit in a room full of people and still feel alone.
The kind who scroll through their phones without seeing anything.
The kind who smile when someone looks, and go silent when no one does.
The kind who stare at the ceiling at night, waiting for sleep that never comes.
The kind who cry through sleepless nights……..
One lonesome night, I remember lying on my bed, staring into the empty darkness. Everyone was in the hands of the goddess of slumber. The clock was ticking loudly, as if reminding me that time was moving, but I was not. I opened my phone and scrolled endlessly, not looking for anything, just trying to escape my own thoughts. I wanted to cry, but even my tears felt tired. I wondered if anyone would notice if I disappeared for a while — not because I wanted to die, but because I wanted the pain to cease. In that silent hour, I realized how loud loneliness can be.
Is this sounds familiar,
Then ,
If you feel like,
“When you hurt under the surface
Like troubled water running cold
Well, time can heal, but this won't”
Believe me, brighter days are ahead. This period of suffering may be a message from God, telling you that you are on the wrong path. Even if it hurts, it can be God’s special way of showing love. He may be trying to lead you to the best version of yourself. You only have to survive this battle and find your way out of the labyrinth.
Of course, people around these depressed but innocent souls may not understand their hearts. Be kind. They are already broken; even a tiny, negligible thing can hurt them deeply. They may have already reached their limit of endurance. Never call them “psyches” or “weak.” That can make their condition even worse.
I hope no one ever has to grieve with regret, thinking:
“So before you go
Was there something I coulda said to make your heart beat better?
If only I'da known you had a storm to weather”
The pain you are undergoing is temporary, and as I said, it may be a sign.
Sometimes, we do not recognize the turning points of our lives while we are inside them. We only see the pain, the confusion, and the weight of each passing day. Later, when we look back, we realize that this was the moment that quietly changed us forever.
Remember that there is still a beautiful and happy soul living inside you, hidden and faded. Bring that soul back. Focus on good things. Smile at the sun. Wake up with the birds. Join their choir — you will be amazed.
I know you are worthy. You are just hurt and shattered. Find a reason to live. If you look mindfully, you will find hundreds of reasons to live.
Can I tell you a secret?
“You are one of the strongest souls in this endless cosmos.”
“So before you go…”
Just remember: this is the gospel disguised in pain.
Something new is about to begin inside.
I step back into the realm of reality.
Lewis Capaldi — Before You Go
